I couldn't sleep the whole night. trying to think something happy so that when I fell asleep something happy came across my dream too. heeeee :) so silly :P
yeap I was actually having some emotions thinking how we got started, went through day by day n finally today. things was so perfect, life was so good that I missed everything so much, that I feel really sad as everything has gone n changed n never come back :'(
you're still the same keep cheating n cheating me which I hate the most as it's the most hurtful ever thing. u never changed. Someone's message just pop up on ur phone AGAIN. apparently u have been texted her almost everyday n yet u were trying to blame me that I did the same thing. keep texting...
3 months back when I confronted u for something, I have expected u will change, not better but worse. it seems like my expectations came true. I blame u for deleting some random entry u didn't want me to know, knowing u sure will mutate to be smarter n cautious, delete every single thing day after. bingo! it happened 😿 u have been texting n texting n DELETING cautiously. we are a pair dear, why are u doing this to me? how would u feel if I do the same thing to u?
I sent u once previously when i knew what u did. it wasn't randomly. after the confrontation, One week later u just did the same mistake. not that I don't know, im just pretending I don't. u just keep doing and doing and doing... how am I supposed to trust u back again? u're not the dear that i used to know anymore. I feel scared sometimes. As my status will always n keep reminding me to trust u, otherwise... love goes out. But it's not my fault when I keep trying, u keep ruining it.
I keep tolerating n pretending that I don't know what u have done at all. how long more do I need to tolerate these shit?
Disappointed. really getting tired of u. U have to change not to please me dear, it supposed to me ur own intention, the feeling of being truthful, not to me, at least to urself. Can you?
And he texted me few days back. asking me how am I doing? how are things between me n you? are u treating me well? am I happy? seems like he can feel my emotions, texted me randomly at the right timing. I was touched and at the same time I was really sad. everything so far so good I replied. but in my heart, it was negative for all. feelings to him no longer there but I'm glad to know he still care bout me. n I'm grateful still having him as my friend and oncall buddy that always acc me, text me during oncall when I'm less busy. hope to meet himsoon :)
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