And so, u told me. Why things always happened when we came back home. Seriously? it didn't click at all? can't figure it out or just being in denial? it's because whenever we are back home it's time when u gain ur so called freedom and do whatever u have been wanted to do. eg, texting other girls, FaceTime flirting with someone else, have an offday from ME :( , ignoring me for being so annoying.. etc All these happens when we were back home that's why conflict came along. it's all u who did this. again n again I get disappointed, n you, kept apologising but at the same time having another new trick to stab my heart with date n diary engraved. ITs NoT erasable at all my dear, pain n agony always persist whenever they came across my mind. sobz 

The very first time knowing u actually just ignored me on purpose was 2 months back. never thought it would happen as u used to treat my like a princess. Just simply being ignorant not replying me cause u were texting n replying and also face timing someone else. What did I do wrongly to deserve this? :'( 

Honestly, I have been really afraid to come home everytime knowing u for sure will hurt me somehow in ur own new way as if giving me all sorts ways to assess my tolerance. it was just yesterday that u broke my heart again, pretending not checking or reading my texts, while u were actually damn free flirting with others. rather text n reply someone else but not me, I was kept wondering, am I really so annoying?? sorry bout that :( I

I have been questioning myself what have I done wrong to make me no longer that significant to you? Since when I no longer ur priority? or... I never been at all from the beginning cause I don't deserve it? quite sad to know that, really sad.

I didn't wanna make u cry tonight, it aches my heart to see u cry. and it's ur birthday my dear, I really didn't mean it. so so sorry 😔 I have been crying deep down in my heart too for how u have treated me. can I have a shoulder please 😭 I have learnt to be tough n more independent, not to shed a single tear, as I believe the only person who deserves my tears would not make me cry. 

managed to catch up with few of my old friends. people really do change as they grow older. cheers for a better change. 

wanted to catch up with him too. sadly didn't manage to... had a heart to heart chat with him instead. he said i should have stayed with him, I might be able to provide him more happiness... LOL seriously? i was once hoping for that one phrase that u have told me today. He said he really thinks im a sweet gf seeing how I used to treat him last time. this is so so ironic, Why Didn't he tell me honestly earlier last time when I was so into him? i guess this is how life supposed to be. Ironic. Unexpected. #timeflies.

I'm loyal because I know what it's like for being treated unfaithfully. I care because I know what it feels like to be neglected or ignored. please don't ask me to stay the next time I walk away from you, moving on. I'm tired.... sometimes we have to pull away not because we don't care, but is because we cared to much that it's so unbearable when we were not being cared for the same way back 

Getting tired with Writtings on the wall.... 

Happy birthday my dear. with Love ❤️