I'll treasure everyday of the 11 days. started texting and looking for friends before I go back to the hell and work like a cow :P my dear drove me back and it was a quick journey :)
When I don't have to work.... there is when my thoughts start to fly like nobody's business. sometimes I wonder why do I have so many wonders -.-
right now at this moment, I'm missing u dear... it aches my heart every single time I think of u. things has changed... emo :'(
I hope one day I have the guts to ask u, do You still want me in ur life? should we just end now and remain the good memories we had rather than keeping me watching little changes day by day. it hurts. I voiced one once, for breakup previously, hurt u, hurt me. I'm so not gonna be the bad person and ask for breakup again. I'll just wait until u do. as I really feel u no longer treat me like how You used to be and how u appreciate my presence. it's kinda sad I know but I have been trying so hard, yet the you I used to know has already gone, far far away. I miss him so badly.
Please tell me if you don't love me anymore rather than leave me hanging there and keep trying to win u back. I'm tired dear. so so tired. wasting effort n time as well. not that I wanted to give up on you, just that u have changed and I'm changing according to ur changes to make us less incompatible. be frank to me as that's the only thing I hope for, in a relationship... Honesty n trust.
No longer. compatible?
God knows. one thing for sure, I love u still. but I really got no idea how to please u anymore.
it's praying day tomorrow :) it's been a long time since I last made mummy a flower. it's time to start doing... miss u mummy, love u ❤️ daddy Elaine n Andy all are good, not to worry.
signing off....
