I'm here only when Im emo...
I'm here when I gotta talk to myself, nobody to talk to, nobody to share my problems and thoughts with...
so yeap, another person I needa let go. for once I thought both of us gonna be like fairy tales, love each other and live happily ever after. what a happy ending :)
things started to change and has already changed. sad to admit, sad to mention but can't help it and what can I do?
for the very first time, got to know you not telling something to me, and i found out myself...it was like a tones of questions running in my head and a needle or torn piercing in my heart and will never heal. forced myself not to think, and things went well. maybe not, I don't know seriously.
again and again, trying hard to trust you more, hoping my love for you able to make me wanna stay and be with you but things just happened again and again, disappointment just kept haunting me like a nightmare. is that a hint? telling me u're not right for me?
very hurtful indeed knowing what you have done. can't help it but to let you go... without trust, relationship will not last; without trust, the feeling of insecure was so intense that I was not able to stay. I love you but I'm sorry i needa leave. talked to someone last night, he said, for girls, once it happened, no matter they believe u or not it's forever imprinted in their mind. well said :)
I'm really tired of guessing people's thoughts and getting more vulnerable that I'm really afraid of getting hurt again. so so hurtfull that I'm not willing to go through it once again. once you know what it’s like to get hurt, the last thing you want to do is put yourself in that situation again. perhaps staying single is the best?
rather not seek out a potential partner when I know there is the potential for getting my heart broken. so just leave me alone...
you said you promise to share things with me and will never lie to me again. but dear, do you know what we were and how we used to be?
I miss receiving random text and pictures from you, like what I used to do as well. we saw interesting stuffs and got excited, wanted to share so eagerly and hoping each other were there.
I miss seeing your messages every morning once I opened my eyes. it makes me smile :)
I miss your simple gestures and little actions and favour you used to do for me just because you care.
i miss the you I used to know who I fell in love with.
you got me my dear? things has changed. you gave me commitment and promises. but things happened naturally before this without promises. now you just make it sounded like doing for the sake of doing, sharing just because I requested, and texting just because it became habit and routine, even though we don't feel like texting and got nothing better to say... how sad it is but I gotta admit I see the changes clearly.
let's hope for the best? time to sleep. Zzz.. 😴
