I was really upset today. Busy running errands and most of it just went wrong.
Ended up rushing here n there, running out of time, things not done etc
so frustrating...
But what upsetting me the most is always you :( I was like talking to myself for the entire day. texted u but no reply, and not even 'seen' even though u're online. Perhaps this is just u. but can I be at least someone more special to deserve more attention? u were not like this when we first started. I could at least feel that I have slightly more priority that u would always reply me no matter what my text was a question or a just a statement to inform u anything. Maybe I'm thking too much but I really do feel like u always ignore me 😔 sorry if u're busy...
I am absolutely terrible in direction and have really poor eyesight. you know it better than anyone else... yet when I told u I lost my direction when I was heading home. I was actually feeling so helpless, had no clue where to head to, raining heavily obscuring my already so poor vision to look at the road signs, phone running low in battery... I didn't see any signs of panicking or concern from u. well u did ask 'where are you', but I was panicking didn't even reply u, and yet u just let it be... not even a call to make sure I'm safe? when I finally replied... it took u half a decade to reply me, seems like u really not worried at all, asking me whereabout for the sake of asking. perfectly understood!
I left u. headed home. it took me 3 hours to reach home for all the heavy traffic, and lost my direction several times. was really tired after all, hoping u will cheer me up when I said I was emo, don't feel like talking... And YET, u really just ignored me cause I said I don't feel like talking! well done my dear! yes I know u're busy as u're going for trip, but honestly... really that busy?! I saw u online on watsapp, checking fb and all, but just... not even a single text to check out on me... my last few messages to u were all not 'seen'.
haiz. pathetic me...
speechless
I should have just buried myself in the blanket and cry 😿
